resolution

whatever reason they had for messing with my head, body and life - it has failed. i am having such difficulty coming to grips with everyday life, and it's a struggle to put together what has happened to me since march as i have forgotten (and simply don't want to remember) so much. doesn't help that i have always been lousy with dates either and whatever i recorded (and i did try) i also destroyed on promises that it was all wrong or all over. nor does it help that i've been unemployed so long (lost my job in april because i couldnt concentrate and only started looking again beginning of last month), and losing my house as my ex can't afford the mortgage and bills.

but as i search the internet for hints that similar have occurred to others, and to try to warn others still, i've come across a disturbing pattern which tallies with what i, myself, have experienced. worse, i've come across sites which actually relate to what i suspect are the motives behind the actions of the high council. simply, i believe they want to take control of whatever the federation out there calls itself (basically its a massively bloated, uselessly beurocratic version of the united nations).

i don't care how long i have. i don't care who is listening, or who won't. i am going to put together a plan which may have been in development for decades, which has been definitely in the works since about 2000. and which will culminate, such is their hope, in the takeover of the federation and the control of earth.

i want everyone to know what the haig-raith is up to. and since i probably won't be around to say 'i told you so' later, i'll do it in advance "I TOLD YOU SO!"

also there is one - illador'ne - who can be trusted. but remember, by the time this all happens, anyone can come down and pretend to be him. i just thought i'd mention him.




i just thought, even if nobody is going to take me seriously, i should try to leave a warning...